There's a lot a lot of things i wish i can all spill out here right now but i dont know how and where to start.
So if you did read my blog post lately you will know that i have been saying something about my intuition right. so apparently today i think i shall say it really so right. And i don't know how should i react to that situation. Because its so weird that i am feeling relatively calm or didn't behave as bad as i thought it will be. Yes i will not deny that i dont feel the pain. Its like how can it not hurts? when i still even fully recover from that. But well, i am better than i thought i will be. i hope so...
A lot things keep flashing back today, words from one of my friend caught me off guard or should i say make me realized? make me see things better, make me see the real dirty truth behind the beautiful lies all along. And makes me wanna laugh at how silly and stupid everything is now?
The best part is, my tears even refused to roll down. Just refused to. Never thought of crying, never thought of wallowing.
And it make me even sure of what i really want now. I hope this keeps me going.
And i actually have empathy for someone i shouldn't be having. But because i understands the pain that person is going through. I know how hard it is. I soft-hearted by understanding how pain it is and how miserable the person is. I understand the pain but i shouldn't be soft hearted.
The person didn't but well....
letting go a lot of stuff because thats the right thing to because it will makes me happier. I feel good that i am dealing it better and in a stronger way.
Right now, my life is definitely happier. Its hard but i am trying. I am really trying my best to hold myself together to pick myself up slowly or faster.
For today, all the things are pushing me to the good and strong side. I hope this continue.
There are a lot more i wanna say. Its not whats all in my mind but i am too tired to get things out so Goodnight people. (Still have to finish my work ): )