Hi lovelys, its Friday once again. This week, i always wanted to blog but end up didn't because i am feeling too tired from school. So today here i am updating this space because i overslept and didn't go school. Well, a good way to stay at home since my stomach feeling slight unwell lately too.
This week by far, both good and bad. Wednesday can say is the most terrible of all. Both last week and this week, my Wednesday been really bad. Seriously, didn't expect myself to behave this way, despite saying i won't. But when i got my things back, it become so overwhelm, tried to control it, tried to swallow all back, but suddenly it all came out flowing down. And its so unlucky when the last person I don't wanna to be seen is this state is just right beside my table. And i guess its pretty obvious, judging from the look on my face. And i know i give the people around me a shock, I myself got a shock when it all came flowing. I never expect myself to behave like that again you know. Last week, is dodo and this week is Matha. But thanks all deep down, for cheering me up with all the warm concern, laughter, giving me support and also many Hi-chew by different people. Its so warm inside to have you all.
Blessed and still blessed to have you all. Sorry for making you all worry and thanks for everything. I will get better, give me some time.
I know it will only get harder, I know it gonna be toughest period now. For studies and myself, but I will do my best. I know it will not gonna be easy, but i won't give up, I will pick myself up. I will be brave. i guess i am really feeling much better already, I am good, i gonna be okay. So don't worry. I will do my very very best. Heheheheeehehehehhe, at least i am still enjoying my life right now. At least, i didn't lose that smile on my face, its hard not to smile when you have such buddies around you making you smile and laugh. There's some kind of freedom i am enjoying right now, some kind of fun i am having, feeling some kind of load being thrown off. Perhaps i should just look at the bright side, then i will realised things are not as bad as it seem.
And I seriously don't get it, what's so fun about mocking on people's misery? I guess people should just grow up and also grow some sense too. But i am not angry as i thought i will be, I guess i am just not entertained by their child's play thats why. ^^
Just as i thought July will get better, and it prove me all wrong. July is such a bad month for me, I sincerely hoping that August will be a better month for me. Pretty please! Hehehehehe.
Some photos before i go,
OOTD for last Saturday.
OOTD for Grandma's birthday yesterday.
And i am really getting so much better already, so don't worry. Got this weird but good feeling after Wednesday that drama, so hopefully it will really be weird but good. Gotten more strength.
Sorry for been posting so many negative stuff lately, hopefully this will be the last already. Smileeeeee, happy girl :D
All the girls who are feeling sad, wipe the tears and smile cause you deserve it.
Goodbye. Hope you guys have a good friday the 13th and good weekends ahead. Cause I believe i will enjoy mine cause Cheer training in the morning tomorrow, Pay's birthday celebration in the afternoon-midnight, then Sunday cheer training. I love how pack my life is, i love my busy life.
P/S : The funny and awkward feeling you get when you have eye contact with people you don't talk to anymore or used to mean so much to you. HAHAH, Seriously its weird. But at least it don't sting.
