#87 >>> Ain't No Reminiscing Baby.

Hi lovelys, its Friday once again. This week, i always wanted to blog but end up didn't because i am feeling too tired from school. So today here i am updating this space because i overslept and didn't go school. Well, a good way to stay at home since my stomach feeling slight unwell lately too. 

This week by far, both good and bad. Wednesday can say is the most terrible of all. Both last week and this week, my Wednesday been really bad. Seriously, didn't expect myself to behave this way, despite saying i won't. But when i got my things back, it become so overwhelm, tried to control it, tried to swallow all back, but suddenly it all came out flowing down. And its so unlucky when the last person I don't wanna to be seen is this state is just right beside my table. And i guess its pretty obvious, judging from the look on my face. And i know i give the people around me a shock, I myself got a shock when it all came flowing. I never expect myself to behave like that again you know. Last week, is dodo and this week is Matha. But thanks all deep down, for cheering me up with all the warm concern, laughter, giving me support and also many Hi-chew by different people. Its so warm inside to have you all. 

Blessed and still blessed to have you all. Sorry for making you all worry and thanks for everything. I will get better, give me some time. 

I know it will only get harder, I know it gonna be toughest period now. For studies and myself, but I will do my best. I know it will not gonna be easy, but i won't give up, I will pick myself up. I will be brave. i guess i am really feeling much better already, I am good, i gonna be okay. So don't worry. I will do my very very best. Heheheheeehehehehhe, at least i am still enjoying my life right now. At least, i didn't lose that smile on my face, its hard not to smile when you have such buddies around you making you smile and laugh. There's some kind of freedom i am enjoying right now, some kind of fun i am having, feeling some kind of load being thrown off. Perhaps i should just look at the bright side, then i will realised things are not as bad as it seem.  

And I seriously don't get it, what's so fun about mocking on people's misery? I guess people should just grow up and also grow some sense too. But i am not angry as i thought i will be, I guess i am just not entertained by their child's play thats why. ^^

Just as i thought July will get better, and it prove me all wrong. July is such a bad month for me, I sincerely hoping that August will be a better month for me. Pretty please! Hehehehehe. 

Some photos before i go, 

OOTD for last Saturday. 

OOTD for Grandma's birthday yesterday. 

And i am really getting so much better already, so don't worry. Got this weird but good feeling after Wednesday that drama,  so hopefully it will really be weird but good. Gotten more strength. 

Sorry for been posting so many negative stuff lately, hopefully this will be the last already. Smileeeeee, happy girl :D

All the girls who are feeling sad, wipe the tears and smile cause you deserve it. 

Goodbye. Hope you guys have a good friday the 13th and good weekends ahead. Cause I believe i will enjoy mine cause Cheer training in the morning tomorrow, Pay's birthday celebration in the afternoon-midnight, then Sunday cheer training. I love how pack my life is, i love my busy life. 

P/S : The funny and awkward feeling you get when you have eye contact with people you don't talk to anymore or used to mean so much to you. HAHAH, Seriously its weird. But at least it don't sting. 

#59 >>> Let's play it my way.

Lovely People, Greeting you guys with a new blog post, its officially 1AM now.

Did you realized the changes i did to my blog? Oh yeah, kinda feel like doing it and so it is. Will edit more when i have the time to, will update my blog playlist soon. 

Didn't update for the whole week, as exams for whole week is driving me crazy. Cause papers are difficult and i think i gonna flunk them so badly. oh no, please don't. Well, blame it on me for not studying hard enough. If you know, i am super super lazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Still Mahjong with my dearest buds for two days straight when we suppose to be studying for exams. 

Arghhhhhhhhhhh! And now, i am practically feeling that exams is over when i still have more papers on the next week. I guess because dnt, physics are subject that i think totally hopeless for me to score or even pass already. And left E Math paper and A Math papers.

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I am having a lazy saturday cause today i just feel like staying at home and do the things i wanna do. Cause been going out so much lately, so decide to stay at home today and i guess due to lack of sleep for the whole week, turn in early yesterday, wake up for breakfast. Nap for the whole afternoon even though i slept for like 11hrs plus. Wake up and do all the things i love and i am happy. Since i slept for the whole afternoon, i am feeling wide awake now plus i am a owl, i feeling more energetic at night than in the day. So i decided not to turn in early today and do more stuff i wanna do. 

I guess catching up with my dramas is one of them! *WinkWink

So well, 

Shut Out .

The book I am reading now, Finally this book is available on Library.

As everytime when i go library to hunt for this book, it's always on loan. So yeah, 

Chapter 8 right now.

Due to exams for the whole week, didn't have time for my book.

Should spent my time to date my book later ^^

Officially a pink-blackberry now. It was all pink at first but my pink keypad kind hard to press so i decide to change my keypad to my original one instead. Kekeke, finally got my bb housed. 

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No photos feel for today, so didn't snapshot some photos of myself today, so just enjoy those photos.

Well, as my previous post say i am dealing with my unstable self lately, and as i say, i will be fine.

And right now, I will say I am really fine now. Stronger than before, loving myself more to know I should be happy and be strong for whatever things that are happening. Your happiness come from within and when you decide to be. I just hope my mind and heart stays this way.

I am a strong girl, I can do this. 

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Its freakin 3.37am now and i am wide awake here, how awesome.  I shall blog tomorrow and continue with my stuff, Tata people!

#42 >> Dance enables you to find yourself and lost yourself at the same time

HI LOVELY PRETTY AND HUNKS! Did you miss me? I hope you do! Firstly, I shall say I'm sorry for not posting for so long! I guess mainly because of my screwed up body clock! I basically sleep my day and holiday away which is so so so bad. Unless i'm going out if not i will sleep in. Which is seriously bad. School gonna reopen soon and this definitely can't go on!

So yeah, school gonna start soon! I guess most of the people are dreading it. Part of me too but yet part of me actually looking forward and excited for school reopen! Idk either. I miss studying and lesson. Which is so weird! I think i might end up regretting having this thought once school starts but right now i miss school and studying. 

I'm feeling so excited today because dance practice on Wednesday!

Gonna learn new dance on that day and wonder what kind of dance we will learn. The thought of it makes me excited already... kekekekeke :D I want to learn all kind of dance in the world!

Dancing is great you know! I want dance till i'm old, till i am too old to even move. This sounds like a good idea isn't it? Ohmy, I miss dance so badly! ): 

Dancing with your feet is one thing, but dancing with your heart is another. 

For me, it works! Whenever I'm feeling down, i will dance. Dance till i am  whats amazing is when i start dancing, i find myself smiling! And after dancing, I'm feeling better or even great already! This is how great dancing is. 

So are you guys curious how's life have been for me? Hmmm, i guess its not too bad. 

So, On Christmas Eve, spent my day at home as its my dear sist's birthday!

So she turn 12 on the Christmas eve! Have a small celebration at home.

Kekeke, It's my sist adorable?  but she can be annoying at times but i still love her so much <3

So yesterday, out to Wanqi's house for Steamboat. Clique Christmas Gathering.

Eat so much till i think my stomach gonna explode soon. So chill out at wanqi's house till eleven plus.

BOOOOOO! Are you missing my kpop post? I will do one tomorrow or by this week okay! It's a Bias post! Since there's nothing much of kpop stuff to post lately, not much group making their comeback now or any group making their debut. Only group that gonna make their comeback soon! Hahahah, so tomorrow i will reveal my next bias! So i did one on Junhyung, Jiyeon and Park Bom already. So curious who's next? Stay tune for my next post to see who is the lucky one! And yeah, i am gonna redo Jiyeon's blogpost. I realised it's too short, no thrill and nothing to read. So i will do one soon! Kekekekek, Excited? 

But don't be sad, even though today there wont be kpop post today, i will still post a kpop video for you to enjoy! Its a song that released recently and receive great love and praise from it. This song also clinch number 1 spots on various music chart, isn't that awesome? Because i am loving this songs and the group singing this too! Kekekekek, bias much :D

SO THE SONG I GONNA SHARE/RECOMMEND YOU GUYS ARE,

Its collaborated by Davichi and T-ara. " We Were In Love"

So it's a ballad song and its a very sad songs! I fell in love with this song from the first time i listen to it already. This is so nice! And Everyone is so pretty in this mv, esp my dear Jiyeon <3

Kekekekekeke. I love Hwayoung in this too, loving her short hair. Suit her perfectly!

So go listen and enjoy this song, you won't regret it :D

And next are,

Beast&APink drop a Mv for a promotional video for a uniform (If i am not wrong)

So this is it!

Awesome people with Awesome MV!

And my dear Junnie is pair with Naeun! Kekekeke, Both my bias from Beast&A Pink pair together.

Enjoy this mv!

Its time to say goodbye even though i also not willing to! Do promote and visit my blog more often okay! I will repay you guys back by posting more often with my life and most of all KPOP!

Kekekekekekekekekekekekekeke, Go read up all my kpop post if you haven! Cause there are all awesome. So as i promise, next post will be on my kpop bias post! So stay tune for it.

Cause till then you will find out who i will blog about. So i gonna end with my selcas i take earlier on!

Annyeong, see you guys soon!